#also i drank milk in my tea for the first time since 2021

[mebiselfandi]

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[shytiff]

Apr 2021 Wins

Started typing this on 4th apr lmaooo

1 - went to mcd. bought chicken + rice with the app promo. there’s a staff helping me on the order machine lol i feel badd there’s no need to do thatt. ate my lunchmade by mom at mcd’s muschola and went to sbux bcs its tumbler day. green tea latte w skim milk as usual. sent dr triya’s translation. ecmocard. started rereading goong (AGAIN. i probably have read it like 3 times minimum). still bring some feels

2 - its holiday today. spent almost the whole daylight rereading goong (turns out its pronounce ‘gung’ not ‘gong’ lol ive been wrong all this time) and finished it. the scene where they stare at each other, separated by the castle door, always gets me. got the old ipad charged (the screen are like 30% close to detaching and falling apart) and started AOT

3 - spent the whole day reading AOT. i like it when i have mini purposes in life (eg: finishing a manga series). AOT rly talks a lot about what do you want to do in life, the consequences of your choices and how you have to live with it. i felt triggered in a good way. the characters dont rly judge other’s choices, but they question them. discuss about it. give you some moral push. second gladi today. my vbg was still filpped hhhh. read aot until i felt sleepy and fell asleep. woke up very near subuh and prayed isya. my toxic trait is the horrible self care (and im talking bare minimum lol hehe lmao)

4 - finished aot. Asked irun about some aot explanations and she sent 5 paragraphs in one bubble. Slept. Flavola, kopsus coklat and somay. Also ate japota honey butter. Did 1 long input of ecmocard. Followed baepsae choreo. Moved my body a bit. Wow im not immediately sleeping. Amazing

5 - arrived at harkit 11-ish and went back about 1pm loll. super hungry when im arriving in kalideres. bought tahu colek worth 3000 (i wonder how the seller hears me through my 2 layers of mask), roti sisir and some ice cream in alfamidi. my fitlife protein powder ran out again. its my 2nd already. did some ecmocard, wasted my time after maghrib

6 - woke up late. did not have the mental strength to go to harkit so i decided to just stay home. bought sbux 1L green tea and macchiato. wasted the daylight and finally did some ecmocard in the evening,,,,

7 - off to harkit 7.30-ish pm in the rain. Took some data for ecmocard. Went to salemba to get tabung and surat bebas pustaka. Had breakfast slash lunch first, tried guudfuud (red rice, beef and omega egg). I like that the rice was not too much. Met up w ness ren and talked about isip dilemmas at sky. Afterwards went to flavola. Ordered mie rebus and roasted milk tea cause i somehow feel sooo hungry and in need of calories. It tasted so good, i was sitting in my usual seat facing the window, and the sky was a mixture of blue and grey. Brought croissant and sakura pocky at indomart. Ate the bread immediately after indomie. Went back home. Juan brought tahu gejrot that was delicious and crunchy. Internship files briefing by akis. Fell asleep

8 - woke up. Saw that dr retha was up for interview. Panicked. Thankfully it was at 12. I left home at 9:40 ish and arrived 11:50. Its a long ass way. Turns out i was interviewed with ka agassi. The doctors are so kind. They explained the gist of anesthesiology profession, and how its a choice you make, and its okay as long as you like what you do. Tried halo bowl for lunch. Sous vide chicken, rice, caesar sauce, beef bacon, and the deliciouss butter broccoli. Went back to kalideres and to starbucks. I only spent <2 hrs in there (a waste of money, i know). Bought decaf hazelnut latte (apparently the beans were kenyan something? Medium?) and butter croissant (need to cushion my stomach). Did GCP certification and sent it to the ever so kind mba Ai. Still got energy from the caffeine, did some ecmocard, read quran, read.... Toji fanfic 🤦‍♀️

9 - went to rsf w mom. We took the wrong way and had to take the long way but thank god theres still time to spare. Met dr rara. Some briefing. Went to rscm w agassi, submitted files for ijazah, went back to RSF. Girlll the cost of transport. MRT: 12K. Grab: 16-17k. Thats one way trip. Bought food at rsf canteen. Eocru briefing by the research coordinator. Ward tour w dr retha. Snacked on ovaltine provided by mba ai. Went home after maghrib by tj. Liqo along the way. Glad bersih (came late). Drank macchiato for some strength but still fell asleep quickly.i shouldnt have laid down

10 - kebakaran jenggot in the morning due to green screen positioning. Finally got the appropriate setup (after many fabric tries and cutting my mukena) at 08:30. Finished showering 08:45. Zoom was opened at 9 lmao. Somehow finished before 09:30. Zoompah w mom and dad along side me. After its ovee, some "photoshoot" w fam. At this point i was truly rly sleepy. Took of my makeup. Changed my clothes. And then racil silv dev showed up lol. I got gifts c: and then atikah came. And then i redid my makeup, this time with the help of friends to create fantastic eye make up look (which i can never pull off). Eyebrows by sil, eyeshadow and liner by cheldev lol. Took some photos. Dajen came. Talked. Videocalled w pupuy. A surprise gift from fianti came. And then chel dajen went back at 8. Still cant sleep. Slept at like 11-12

11 - lazed. Woke up, ate pizza (mom bought 2 of phd's 1m pizza) and bakwan, slept again. Matcha latte and ecmocard. Watched a bit of 2nd sinau

12 - off to rsf at 06:20. Arrived 07:15 ish. Lunch was ayam penyet accompanied by snacks that mba ai bought. Off to harkit at 14:05 (bcs my laptop somehow shut down and i lost all the unsubmitted data). And then off to kalideres at 15:30 ish to meet up w clara and search for clothes for almira's wedding. Went to lippo bcs clar saw this dress that kinda looks like the brokat given. We ate at ramen ya. It doesnt rly make you feel full, the filliny sensation was kinda like indomie. Saw that the dress looked different. Ate 1 boba pancake together at banban. Continued on to the tailor in kebon jeruk. The location was in an alley, and it was raining lol. Quoting clara: "the unnecessary struggles". The tailor was quite helpful (and she looks experienced). Arrived at clara's at 8 ish. Picked up by mom with car (it was raining) and arrived at abt 9. Hurriedly showered and tarawih and tidied up AND ITS ONLY 09:45. Its crazy how efficient one use time (and at the same time, how wasteful one can be)

13 - first day of fasting. The morning was spent taking samples. I stupidly took a sample thats not yet labeled im sorry :(((( i felt kinda tired and wanted to give up this. Give up anesthesia. Went back home at 14:00 and its cloudy. The bus was the nicer types and it was COLD. Read quran along the way. Picked up by juan. Opened laptop. And then its iftar time. I was sooo sleey and the tarawih was so long thst i closed my eyes along the way. Fianti called after tarawih, we talked til abt 21:30. And then i fell asleep

14 - went to rscm. Submitted serkom files. Met dr dyah and i hope we could somehow meet her again if we study in fkui again aamiin. Went to rsf by mrt. Arrived in lebak bulus just before it was raining. The bus took a while to arrive (usually theyre there, waiting). Its still raining like crazy so i took grabcar to AR from pesakih (39k). Played with my phone til iftar. Played phone again after tarawih and fell asleep

15 - i felt rlyy lazy and cant bring myself to wake up. Off to rsf at 07:15. There were coordinator ppl. Took sample. It was raining when i went back but i took grabbike from kalideres. Wasted my time and did not do ecmocard

16 - sampling. Snacked on keripik pisang at the room. Went back early at 13:15 ish. Picked up by juan. Sleeeept (and this is before the nightmareish mistake began)

17 - i did a mistake by telling dr retha (who took the sample today) the wrong patient (it switched in my unreliable memory. I feel terrible. Thank god shes quite chill abt it (?). Read jujutsu kaiseeen. Went to flavola. Did 1 ecmocard. Went to bandar jakarta baywalk by motorbike. Spent 135k and was quite full with many varieties. Arrived home at about 20:50. Turns out juan also had bukber with his friends. Phone call with fiiii, talked abt dimrob

18 - lazed all day, read jjk, finished my part of ecmocard (gave genky to ekal cause i was a dumbass at getting data). Ate mom's mentai rice, siomay. Drank green tea latte. Read jjk til 145 (mentok) at night. Proceeds to consume all things jjk lmaoo

19 - we took sooo long to get samples. Finished at 13:00. Went to rm with dr rara. Went back home. Watched the third sinau. Read the IMMACULATE jjk fics by celestialmechanics im IN LOVEEEE with the way s/he writes ughhhh

20 - samples took faster than usual. Mba ai did not came today. Went to RM and did some work there. Off to AR by 15:00. Arrived close to maghrib. Did not do any work afterwards lmao. Did not even wash my face

21 - magang as usual. Note to self: sit on the right side of the bus. Did nothing yesterday. Felt like shit after tarawih (but i showered before maghrib!!)

22 - todays problem was the swab sample not being there even though the staff allegedly already took it. Huft. Took a shower and out on vitacid (i cant remember the kast time i put on vitacid 😳 its probably been... a week or two?

23 - samples finished quite quickly. Already going home at 12. Lazedddd and lazed and lazed. Waited for emir to pick me up so i went to dm. Read an immaculate itadori x megumi fix thats just full of feels. Started demon slayer lets see

24 - literally just laid in bed reading manga and seeing tiktok and slept again and suddenly its 1 am. Showered. Still in a lazy mode. Havent begun clires work. Watched leah's vlog that said "go do things youve been putting off!". Finally finished the third and last video of Sinau Yuk ICU class with dr. Zeta, SpAn lolll even though the actual last class was on 7th apr. iftar was fish and chips and salad yuum

25 - woke up at like 1am since i slept too much yesterday. Ate tan ek tjoan bread and drank sbux matcha latte. Did some intern work. Read a bit of quran. Sahur. Cant even sleep again so i showered. Off with mom and dad (09:30) since dad’s going to get vaccinated at skk migas. Mom drove me to ara’s place (11:00). Talked a bit and even read quran again there. Off to GI (13:00) to meet up w regen. Walked around. Bought a discounted TBS green tea facial wash. Went back home by TJ (16:00). the bus station is a bit closer now. Arrived home close to maghrib (17:30). hurriedly showered and went to sleep (properly) after tarawih. A good good sleep since i got 9400 steps today and that tired me out lmaooo (bare minimum yall, i know). 

26 - woke up still sleepy. Slept again after iftar and woke up at 07:30. Skipped shower and off to RSF lmao. Went to medical record. Walked to the front of RSF originally planning to go to lebak bulus by angkot but i saw none. So i went through mrt instead. Stopped by at kebon jeruk and walked 800 meter (that tireeed me and made me feel parched under the sun) to risma busana for clothes fitting. Took gojek to jembatan gantung (turns out the closer halte to flyover was taman kota). Iftar was chicken noodle and risol and banana and i felt fullll and i slept

27 - today is off day since im alternating with agassi. read quran. watched shadow and bone (with 1,5x speed except for kanej and matthias nina scenes). didnt rly do any magang work except the table asked by dr retha. i feel like usually im operating on 70%. sleeping more doesnt rly add that. i need caffeine or physical activity. before i know it, its close to iftar.

28 - i ((felt)) like i had a decent amount of energy today. shouldve done some work between sahur and leaving the house but i ended up reading vampire knight lmaoooo the scenes had no business bringing so much butterflies. sampling together w agassi. mba ai didnt come in today. after agassi left did some magang work. i also went to RM to ask for more RM to bu dian. took angkot to lebak bulus for the first time. paid 5k. i had no idea which angkot went to lebak bulus and the driver (somehow knowing the right words to say) said “lebak bulus lebak bulus”. didnt read much quran on the way back. i just close my eyes and relaxed. felt kinda low on sugar. watched more shadow and bone on the way back and at home until close to iftar. didnt do anything after tarawih. slept hoping i woke up early (which i did, at 3am. but i slept again)

29 - im supposed to have ample energy but i just stuck around my bed until its time to get ready to go. read some kanej fic lol. I dont rly do anything productive after arriving home

30 - made intern log, magang as usual. Did not go to rm. Finished watching shadow and bone. Rested bcs tomorrow's saturdayyy

[svguavajelly]

Chimborazo

On Sunday evening, Riki and I had the opportunity to attempt to summit the volcano Chimborazo, Ecuador’s tallest volcano at 20,534 feet. The summit of Chimborazo is also actually the closest point to the sun (closer than the summit of Everest), because of the bulge at the Earth’s equator.

I wasn’t too sure about our chances, seeing as we hadn’t trained at all. The points in our favor: we live at 8,500 feet so are a little bit acclimatized; Riki rides his bike a lot; I play Ultimate Frisbee once a week; Riki summited Cotopaxi, at 19,350 feet in 2007; I have some mountaineering experience having summited Rainer twice. My previous highest altitude was 17,800’ at Thorong La pass in Nepal, and I didn’t feel very good that day. I had a headache, came back down & vomited, and decided to descend further in order to escape the malaise I felt.  The points against us: Riki was sick the week before, he had gotten a blister on his bunion on his right foot during our hike in Cajas the weekend before, Riki’s shoulder is still recovering from his reconstruction surgery, and I am pretty out of shape.

My mom is visiting right now, and she volunteered to watch the kids so Riki and I could do the three day Chimborazo trip. She managed to get all the kids to Tomu’s soccer game, take Tomu & Jade to school and pick them up Monday, and even take Luz to her child development class at my friend Lore’s on Monday morning. Tomu & Jade spent Saturday night at a friends, and Luz wouldn’t let my mom pick her up out of the crib Sunday morning when she realized that Po Po was the only one there. She kept asking: mama? Papi? Momu? Jade?

We booked a guide and a tour online. The tour included 3 meals, one night’s stay in the hut in the National Park, and all the gear needed for climbing (ice ax, crampons, helmet, headlamp, balaclava, mountaineering boots, gaiters, harness, etc.).

Saturday morning we left at 8:30 am on a bus to Riobamba. All the buses in Ecuador seem to play violent action movies at either super loud volume, or too low volume to hear. This bus ride Wolverine was playing. The road is so windy, and the bus drivers take the curves so fast that your body rocks back and forth in the seat, so you have no chance of sleeping.

We got to Riobamba & took a cab up to Chakana Mountain Temple, our first night’s lodging. The tour company recommended that we stay there to begin the acclimatization process. Our cab driver was so interesting. I asked him how the strike had gone, and he said, “bastante bien” (pretty well). He told me that Chimborazo province has the most indigenous people in all of Ecuador, and that they were really strong during the strike. He said he was a strike leader, and they had captured 16 of the Ecuadorian policemen and held them hostage for 6 days until they would admit that the policemen had killed two protesters. Then he told me how 200 buses left from Riobamba, a city of about 500,000 people for Quito to protest. The military blocked their way with tanks, and they burned the tanks and kept going. Man! Talk about badass. The taxi driver caught me up on the current talks with the government, and said he didn’t think there would be any more strikes because elections are coming up in 2021, and if President Moreno continues to try to implement these economic measures, there will be more strikes and it won’t be good for his re-election.

We arrived at Chakana, at 13,780’, and it immediately began to downpour. So we sat by the fire in the dining room, played cribbage, drank coca tea & ate popcorn. Riki won—I think I’ve beaten him perhaps once in my life at crib. We listened to an episode of The Moth Story Hour, and they talked about having a Pitch Line, where you could pitch your story in two minutes. Riki asked me for my story pitch, and I began talking about my aunt Evi. Do I start with her being lost at sea on the Niña? Maybe that grabs the listeners’ attention best. Or do I start with a million other stories that show what a unique, trailblazing person she was? I just talked, and ended up crying of course.

I had to pump milk in order to keep my milk supply going for Luz. It’s so convenient to be able to help her sleep while traveling by breastfeeding, and we have a few long trips coming up. While pumping, I felt so grateful that I haven’t had to do this every day since Luz was born, as I had to when Jade was a baby, while working full-time. This was my first night sleeping away from Luz since she was born.

On Sunday morning we took a twenty minute walk into this gorgeous canyon where about 15 people were rock climbing! It was a tight canyon, with green grass & a waterfall at one end. Most of the routes were sport routes, and it was cool to meet Ecuadorian climbers. I saw the same light and joy in Matias’ eyes that I know shines in mine when I’m climbing, or thinking about climbing, or talking about climbing.

Unbeknownst to us, our lodging sat on the rim of the canyon above the climbing wall. Chakana lodge is the red roofed building. Surprise!

At noon Sunday our guide Patricio, whose nickname is Pato (duck) or Don Patito (Mr. Duckling), showed up right on time to take us into the National Park. He was a short bald man, 51 years old, with huge calf muscles. I asked him how many times he had summited Chimborazo, and he said he had lost count. He began climbing mountains at age eleven. I figured that was a good sign. In this week alone he was guiding Chimborazo Sunday, another mountain nearby Monday, Cotopaxi Tuesday, and Chimborazo again on Friday.

We made it up to the Carrel refugio, elevation 15,750’, around 1:30 pm and began trying on mountaineering boots and sorting the rest of the gear. Pato made us a light lunch of guacamole, bread, tomato, and cheese, then sent us off on an acclimatization hike to the Whymper refugio, 650’ further up the mountain.

Chimborazo graveyard

We had dinner at 4 pm, and laid down to rest at 5 pm, with our alarms set at 9 pm. I had a slight headache, and took an ibuprofen before going to sleep. I fell right asleep, but Riki didn’t sleep at all (maybe 15 minutes!). In contrast to Cotopaxi, which often has 20 parties attempting to summit on a given day, there was only one other party attempting to summit with us. Pato said that Cotopaxi is more popular because the summit is lower and therefore more accessible, and it is not as steep.

After eating a banana, we filled our thermoses with coco tea, donned our gear, and set off at 10 pm. While we rested, there had a been a storm, with lightning, which dumped about a foot of new snow. Another party who were planning to sleep in tents at the High Camp, at 17,390’, had to abandon their plan and hike out because of the storm. But the sky was mostly clear, with some clouds. A gibbous moon shone down on us. Riki said to me soon after we began: “Sabes qué? Te amo.” Do you know what? I love you. I felt like hell for the first 1,300’ or so, until we stopped to rest. I still had a slight headache, and I felt nauseous, and the snow kept balling up under my left boot, which was annoying me. I had my headlamp on also, which made me focus on the bit of illuminated snow in front of me, and prevented me from taking in the beauty of our surroundings.

After a short rest, some coca tea, and a piece of dried mango, I remarkably felt a lot better. My headache and my nausea went away. I turned off my headlamp and the beauty of climbing above the clouds, by moonlight and starlight, really helped me and gave me strength. We kept on through the fresh snow, heading up. We roped up & put crampons on just before traversing beneath a jagged rock band called The Castle on steep snow. Pato led the rope team, I was in the middle, and Riki last. On top of the Castle the views were amazing, just vast openness, rocks jutting up from the cloud layer. We passed the other party, who were headed down because one of their party was sick. As we got higher, I had to really concentrate on doing the rest step, and exhaling audibly and forcefully, which in turn makes you take deep breaths in. To me it was so interesting how your world can shrink to just putting one foot in front of the other, just keeping up with the rope leader. Riki later asked me what I was thinking about, and said he was thinking about so many things, about sailing, about other hard things he had done in his life. I can’t remember what I thought about, I just felt present in the moment, happy to be in such a beautiful place, and hoping I could keep going and make it to the top. Riki said to me at some point, “I”m going to remember this forever. Te amo.”

We reached a short, steep snow section that was pretty sketchy because of the snow conditions being so soft and unconsolidated. We stopped, and Pato went up to set up some protection. I was nervous for him! Then it was my turn, and I was nervous for me, even though I was on belay. I used the pick of my ice ax to dig in the snow, my crampon toes to dig in the snow, and my hand to grab rocks on the left hand side. Riki seemed to come up the scary part with ease.

We continued up until we got to the glacier, at 18,810’. Pato dug a snow pit to check the snow for avalanche conditions. He didn’t like it, saying that we could potentially get up the glacier, but it would be too dangerous coming down, and would likely avalanche. At this point it was 3:30 am and we had been climbing for 5 1/2 hours. He said that we were in good physical condition, we were making good time, and that had it not been for the snow condition, we would have made it to the top. I guess you never know…but the summit was still 1, 700 feet away! That’s a lot of rest steps and deep exhales. I was bummed that we had to turn around, but also a tiny bit relieved that the decision to turn around was made NOT because I (or Riki) wasn’t able to keep going. :)

On the way down, I went first on the rope, then Riki, then Pato. It seemed to take forever to get down, plunge stepping on the steeper parts, and following our tracks from the way up the whole way. That steep section was scarier going down, though I was on belay. We needed our headlamps now, because the moon had been covered by clouds. We finally got back to the hut at 6:15 am, and I had nothing left. I collapsed on my bed to sleep for a few hours before beginning the journey back home to Cuenca. We had some gorgeous views as we neared the refuge again in the dawn light, but we were too tired to stop and take a picture. It looked like we could see to the Pacific Ocean, though I’m sure that’s not true…just layers and layers of blue mountains sticking out above the clouds.

We packed up our stuff, had breakfast, and headed out. Then we had to wait for 90 minutes at the park entrance for the agency’s truck to come get us. That was pretty annoying, when we just wanted to get home, and we knew we had a long bus ride ahead of us. Finally the truck came and took us to a town outside Riobamba where we could catch a bus to Cuenca. The bus to Cuenca came within 5 minutes…and it was the exact same bus we had taken 2 days before. Same driver, same ayudante, and yep, Wolverine was playing again. This time I was so exhausted I did sleep for a few hours. We got home at 5 pm, and it was pretty sweet to see the kids again. A huge thanks to my mom for watching the kids so we could have a 3 day mountain adventure!!